Me and Myself

Me and Myself

How are you guys doing? In this chaotic world I hope all of you are giving your best. 

From last few months I am thinking about bettering myself . As days goes by something inside me still feels empty, it feels like I am not doing enough. 

Self-development is an integral part of our life. No matter how much you live your life to the fullest a part of you always wants to be better. 

As I am thinking about being better, a part of me is still losing control of myself. The expenses, the decision somewhere still feels like a mistake I made down the path. 

As from the last small Blog you guys know about my recent Apartment purchase. It's still a huge monetary pressure for me right now but still for some reason I want to get out of my confort zone and take a leap of faith , and my friends this was my leap of faith but with huge leaps comes great depression. The losses, thequestions and obviously the monetary struggle. 

For few years I've been following schedule as when to eat, what to eat and how to live your life in disciplne . I would've said this is enough but honestly it's not, I want to be better a lot better and honestly speaking who doesn't want more money and more success... 

So what did I do? I started reading books allthough I live reading fantasy and thrillers this is my first time reading self development books. 

YouTube videos of Minimalism, self development works to but it's something about the book that trully juggles your mind. 

I've selected three books for a start. 

1.Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill.

2.can't hurt me by David Goggins. 

3.Limitless by Jim Kwik 

As I've just started reading Think and Grow rich I got instantly transported to a self reflected world. Somethinh about this book feels like it knows my inner turmoil and the question I am asking to myself for myself. 

As Vincent Williem Van Gogh once said : 

If you hear a voice within you say you cannot paint, then by all means paint and that voice will be silenced. 

Currently I am at Kharagpur, I came here for few days because of the apartment and today finally I am going back home. I am relieved but at the same time I am tensed thinking of my future. The thought of myself living outside of my Comfort zone haunts me and it's really depressing because there's is nothing to worry about to be honest. 

My mother told me a lot of people are struggling a lot more than you, so don't worry this is nothing just think about the people doing their best and push forward.

Starting this blog was also a part of myself getting out of that comfort zone and trying to keep myself in check for always being the better version of myself. 

I know all of you who's reading been going through a lot worse than  me maybe . But i know all of you are strong enough to push yourself to the best. 

Reality is harsh but live it to the fullest and as Kratos from God Of war once said: 

Don't be Sorry, Be Better. 

Thank you for reading, Good day 😊.